No, I'm not going to write about life purposes or any such mumbo jumbo. I'm just feeling a need to remind people of the purpose behind my keeping this blog.

Rather than write it all out again, let me link to a post I made back in October.

What I'm getting at is that this blog is an outlet for me. It's not necessarily a chronicle of my day to day life so much as somewhere to vent, to write about things that people in my every day life don't really understand. Things like standing at the dryer for several minutes and sniffing a shirt I'd forgotten was in the hamper because it smelled like him. (I couldn't put it in the washer either.) Or being awake at crazy hours of the night because I miss and worry about my husband.

My blog isn't going to be a 'happy go lucky, stay positive the whole deployment' kind of blog. It doesn't mean I'm not surviving or that I'm depressed, it's just my way of coping. We all have our methods, our outlets; this is mine. What I write here is just one portion of my life rather than the whole picture.

Someone suggested I keep a private blog for my venting ... what on earth would I write about then? Seriously though, my husband and I talked about this before he left and he preferred I not do that. We both believe that keeping our relationship strong means open communication.

Steve suggested I make one positive post per day and find a hobby. That's not bad advice, but just because I'm not posting about it doesn't mean I'm not seeing the positive in every single day, that I'm not appreciating just how lucky I am to have a man like my husband in my life, despite the trials of things like deployments or unexpected moves. Not writing about things like my two part time jobs, my involvement with a military charity, my time out with friends, the fact that I've taken up roller blading, etcetera, does not mean I don't do or enjoy those things. What is posted here is a snippet, one aspect of my life. It's an outlet for me, as stated in the sidebar. It isn't a journal and I sometimes think people see it as such.