Erm, okay?

I had a massage today. We're in single digit days from R&R so I used the gift certificate that my wonderful husband got me for Christmas for a massage and a pedicure. :adore

The massage was an interesting experience. I opted for an upper body only and she kind of raised her eyebrows at that, but I think she understood when she got her hands on my neck and shoulders. Clearly that's where I carry any stress. All was going well, though she was working some pretty tender spots, and I was mostly enjoying the massage. Then she started to work my hand. As if she'd flipped a switch, I immediately started crying, completely out of the blue. I hadn't been thinking about anything, hadn't been emotional, it was very weird.

You have to imagine this to grasp the full scope. I'm lying face down, nearly naked under naught but a sheet, with my head in this pillow with a hole in it so I can breathe. The catch is that I'm getting over a cold so after a few minutes of all the fluid in my sinuses rushing to the front of my head, I can only breathe through my mouth, which I don't like to do. I'm already trying not to let out a disgusting sniffle and then I start to cry on top of that. Seriously? I was actually glad she was almost done so I didn't have to excuse myself.

She was just rubbing my hand, why the heck would I cry? All I can figure is that it's the first time anyone has really truly touched me in so many months and my body just reacted. Maybe I'm just crazy like we all suspected in the first place. :wave: It was definitely the oddest massage I've ever had, despite that she did excellent work.

I guess I'll try to fill my touch quota for a few more months over the upcoming two weeks with my husband.

This entry was posted on January 17th, 2010 at 12:42:13 am by Stephanie and is filed under Day to Day, Deployment.

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Comment from: Susanna [Visitor]

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Maybe your massage released the stress you've kept inside and that expressed itself through your tears. I think it's a good thing!

01/17/10 @ 12:49

Comment from: Tiffany [Visitor]

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Enjoy your time with your husband (like you needed anyone to say that.... duh).

01/17/10 @ 17:04

Comment from: Lemon Stand [Visitor]

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OK. I had to really think about writing the first thing that came to my mind. Even though I sometimes regret not having a filter between my brain and my mouth, it is a little safer with having an ENTER key... but not by much. But I thought you might get a much needed laugh out of the visual that just went through my grey matter.

Imagine this woman releasing all your stress from your neck and the stress running like milk down to your hands and fingertips. Then she gets out the milk/stress bucket and milks your hands. You started crying when you realized that she had just drained enough milk (stress) from you to make the state of Wisconsin jealous.

Seriously though. Give yourself a break. That's a hell of a lot of stress to let go of. :sneakyhug

01/17/10 @ 21:34

Comment from: Tootie [Visitor]

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I've only had one massage, and it was awkward because for really no good reason I almost burst out laughing! So here's to awkward massages..

That is awesome that R&R is coming up so soon!!

01/17/10 @ 22:03

Comment from: Stephanie [Member]

Thanks for the input, ladies! :adore It was just really odd, I have no idea. I wouldn't have minded so much if I could actually breathe!

I'm officially anxious about R&R and ready for time to just hurry the heck up so I can get on a plane already. :happydance:

01/17/10 @ 22:09

Comment from: Jane [Visitor]

You shouldn't worry about this. This is a common effect of massages.

Have fun with the hubby!!!

01/18/10 @ 01:44

Comment from: Fable [Visitor]

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I've heard theories that our bodies hold all kinds of memories and emotions that we don't remember in our minds. Things like massages can release these and open up a flood of emtion that we didn't even know was there. You are certainly not the first to have this happen!!

01/18/10 @ 11:59

Comment from: Heather [Visitor]

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I wouldn't worry about it. People who give massages have seen it all.

I'm new to the blogging world, and I'm enjoying finding blogs written by fellow military spouses. Looking forward to reading more posts. And keep smiling!

01/30/10 @ 19:12

Comment from: Ann M. [Visitor]

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Physical contact is definitely a big deal for me when Greg is gone. Sometimes you don't even realize that it's something you are missing or that bothers you until somebody actually touches you.

I think this is totally normal, too. I figure all that tension she worked out of your shoulders and neck had to go somewhere.

02/01/10 @ 23:30

Comment from: Becca (Lovely Yellow Ribbons) [Visitor]

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I just found your blog, and wanted to say hi!!

I've never gotten a massage (I KNOW! Gasp!!) so I can't relate.

I'd probably cry from the joy of getting my first "professional" massage though

Becca :ribbon:

02/03/10 @ 19:13

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